Stress

Stress is the worst. Its so hard to get rid of.  There have been a lot of new developments in my life, some major but many insignificant. Oddly enough, its the really small things that are driving me crazy. Something as small as a word or phrase said (or omitted) by someone else. Of course these things are usually said about me or come from someone I care about. 

I just can't figure out when I became so sensitive. So nervous and what I perceive to be weak. I've always thought of myself as able to handle anything. But lately, work, family, friends, and life have taken precedence over taking care of me! I worry about everything all the time. I don't really know how to take a break and not do anything, I keep myself busy for fear of being lonely. And really, I don't think the world believes I deserve a break. I'm supposed to keep on until I kill myself - wear out completely.

In the end, I still don't know what pushes me over the edge into 'really' stressed out. I also am not sure what calms me down. Sometimes I mentally get into these spiral thoughts, that just worries about the problems, worries about worrying, etc, etc. I just know that its not good. 

I woke up the one day recently with hives and this morning was the most embarrassing morning of my life. So I know I need to do something about this. I just don't know where to start. 

Stressed Out - A Tribe Called Quest