I'm not eating my words, but I have to admit... by the end of my trip I felt alive again.
I don't know why I hesitate at celebrating the good moments in my life. I think its because I don't want them taken away from me. But in the spirit of changing for the better in the new year, I will express my overall happiness with my trip. I was treated very well! I smile at the thought of it, I think it is most woman's fantasy. I feel very bad for having an argument in the middle of it and catching an attitude. But I had good reason and it allowed for conversation that I'm not sure I would have had prior to.
I also learned things about myself, went through extreme emotions, and shared emotions with someone very special to me. Against my normal, realist self, I sided with my emotional, idealist self. Hopefully, this does not leave me a frustrated, emotional wreck in the end.
I am learning to trust. Really, really, trust and allowing someone else to lead. I didn't know I had a problem with this before. But I'm willing to work on that. I guess I'm trying something new.
Trust a Try - Janet Jackson
